Well, here is what I hope to be one the few last entries I make to this blog, as the day has finally come to bring this blog to a close. This exact day last year, at around 4:30 pm, my life was changed forever in a matter of seconds. I was a different person, had a totally different way of thinking, and it's funny now as to be honest I do not recognise her any more. This accident that happened a year ago has changed me for the better, made me see life in a totally different way and I feel I am the person I should be. I am writing this as I listen to that one fateful track, A&E by Goldfrapp, that I randomly found and listened to the day before I ended up in A&E. This still amazes me, as it's such an odd coincidence that I was listening to everything that did in fact happen to me in the following days. One of my earlier posts details the lyrics to the song and how it did in fact dictate my days in hospital. It still freaks me out, and I think it always will.
I do feel oddly peculiar now that today is finally upon me, as I can't help but think about how much I have changed from the person I used to be. And ultimately, I still believe it happened for a reason, and the universe had to take drastic action to help me see what I see now. Although I am not doing what I should be doing or where I want to be, but I am in a much better position than I was back then. I have all my gorgeous friends, I have a settled place to live, I am close to the sea and I have a steady job, I am saving, and ultimately I am happy. So now, a year on, I can finally start to get my ass in to gear and search for what I want to be doing, where I want to be and get that travelling done I so yearn to do. I am determined to find my calling in life, be it in photography, writing or archaeology...a bit late I know, but it's better late than never!
I want to bring this blog to a close as I finally think I can answer the blogs title; How did I end up in accident emergency? It was me, my life and my need for change, and what the universe had planned for me. I was never meant to take that crap job, was never meant to be in Exeter and was never meant to be plodding along aimlessly. It was my wake up call, okay it was a very drastic wake up call, but maybe its what I needed, the only way to make me see. To make me see I was not walking down a good path, in both mind and body. I was way too thin, had no motivation, and didn't see where my life was leading, well it was leading nowhere to be honest! So hear it is, my second start in life, and I am definitely going to reach for all those dreams that glitter, and grab them with full force. Wish me luck everyone, and maybe I will see you around some time. Happy blogging peeps, and don't forget, make everyday worth living, as you never know when it maybe your last! :o)
