Well, to look at me now, you wouldn't think that four months ago to this day I was on deaths door, after a severe head injury. I had a fractured portion of my skull and had a haematoma in my head 1.5 cm in width and 3 cm in length, causing pressure on my brain. I was as confused as they get, I didn't know who I was, I didn't recognise my own mum, I couldn't walk, I couldn't see and my mum and best friend had to look on in horror as my condition worsened...
BUT!
My condition got so bad I had a CT scan and then was rushed to Derriford Hospital to have emergency surgery to remove the bleed. This operation ultimately saved my life...as without it, my brain would have been under increasing pressure and the outlook would not have been...well...not good at all!
4 MONTHS to this day and I am a picture of health, and everyone I see says that they can't get over how well I look. I still have issues seeing this and the severity if it all, even now, and even now I can see how much progress I have made. Yes, I know I was very poorly indeed, and I try and remember back to what it felt like lying in that hospital bed the day of my surgery, all alone and scared shitless. This is still hazy as that's the first memory I have of the whole week, as I lost Monday to Wednesday from amnesia. But the fear is still with me from that horrific day I had before my surgery, away from my family and friends, and all I could do was cry. I had to deal with the prospect of surgery to my head, after not having any sort of operation before; trust me, that is seriously scary stuff!!! But I did have a shining beacon of hope in the form of many, many text messages and phone calls from my ever amazing family and friends. They were what got me through the horrific time, and still support me and show me the amazing people that they truly are. Without them, I don't think I would be strong enough to have made it through, and I certainly wouldn't be at the stage in my recovery that I am now. My mum, dad and sister, along with my best friends Suze, Jodie, Pete and Simone are the real people that got me through. Even though they are spread about the country, they have shown me the beauty that is family and friendship, and I love them all dearly.
I am now progressing with my life, in leaps and bounds and keep my dreams firmly in my pocket where ever I go. I am progressing amazingly well with my freelance writing, and am now writing articles and getting them published in an on-line magazine. Although only a small step, its a step, and will get my name out there and get me in touch with people where my career can progress further. My photography is progressing well too, and I am finding my feet producing amazing photographs. Together with the help of my dad, I am currently making a website, where I can put together a portfolio of my work and get my name out into cyber-space. I am getting back into my running too, only small runs to start with and certainly no 6 mile runs yet, but I am getting my fitness back for sure.
So it's good things for Gwen happening at the moment, and I want to continue this way and to keep progressing around the people I want to be with and the place I want to live. Onwards and bloody well upwards this time, as I won't let me head hit the floor again!
