It has now been nearly four weeks since my surgery, and just over a month since 'the Accident' happened. In some respects it seems like ages ago that I was back home, in the flat I share with my best friend, and in my room, on my bed with the cats sat around me, like they did the weekend before all this happened! But when I try and think about everything that has happened since, it doesn't seem long at all. I suppose I have lived through four incredibly hard weeks, yet it only seems like a few due to my memory loss. This is how my head looks, three weeks after surgery, compared to the first photo I took, the day I was released from hospital.
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| Photo take 23/02/10 |
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| Photo take 12/03/10 |
So yes, there is visible improvement in that, and I can see that my scar is healing and that my hair is growing, not like I would like though! But I am struggling to see further improvement in the other problems I have. My vision and balance seemed to improve in the first few weeks of being at my mum's, but now the improvement seems to have leveled off. This is when I have to face facts that it may take much more time, and I have to prepare myself just in case it does take longer than I have hoped it would. I just have to deal with the bad day's, and as much as the bad day's appear to be happening a lot recently; I know the good day's will eventually come too! Spring is just around the corner, so the weather will be warming up, and the promise of summer and all the fabulous long, sunny days will soon be knocking at our doors!
I just have to rest and be like the tortoise and not the hare, in that "slow and steady wins the race". If I take things slow, one baby step at a time, I know I will pull through this and come out smiling like I always have done! It is hard to stay positive when you see little or no improvement at all, and as much as I want to go full steam ahead, I can't, as I will just make myself worse. So I just have to rest and relax, take small steps, and let my body and head recover at it's own pace. I am seeing a neurologist in the middle of April, four weeks away, but even if I am better, I can still ask questions and get information that I don't have and at least put some answers to the questions I still have. I am seeing my doctor next week too, as he wants to see me every two weeks just to make sure I am okay and to see how I am progressing.
But so far, nearly four weeks after my operation, my scar is healing and my hair is growing; but I still have double vision, major balance issues and I am still totally deaf in my left ear and suffer from constant ringing as well. I also still have problems with my jaw, as I think it must have something to do with what happened in the operation. On my left side, it feels tight and feels like its pulling on the muscle when I open my mouth, and still cant really open it as normal, and struggle to even get a sandwich in my gob! And the headaches, oh the headaches are still with me. They did seem to go away in the early days, but they now seem to have returned, and with a vengeance. I must have consumed so much paracetamol in the last month, and know I will continue to consume more before I get better!
I managed to do quite a lot of damage in those few seconds when I collapsed and hit my head on the floor!
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